swimming has brought an edge to it of leftout-ness, self unaware, isolation, along with the sun, clean water, turtles bobbing their heads up and down, and masses of college students in various stages of undress. both barton springs and balmorhea state park have dark, silent, fish and crawdad only areas that i feel very alone in, but the feeling isn't all together uncomforting. a mixture of jealousy, vanity, awareness of mortality, mixed with a seamless inclusion into the reality of water ecosystems. are you still following me? just that feeling that time melts away as you approach an un-noticed death under beautiful circumstances.

the reason i haven't written in a while is being bogged down with end of school madness and interviewing for an actual teaching position, which i secured for next year at menchaca elementary in south austin. seems not far off but very different to be the teacher instead of the caseworker. definitely a change of social scenery that i can already see myself in. i was considering my hermitness today while floating in previously mentioned pool and somehow being a schoolteacher at the edge of town makes sense with that picture. born in new hampshire, teaching kindergarten in spanish and english in texas. ha pasado poco tiempo con un gran cambio de vida.